GRRRR

Ok. So I'm OVER it. I'm over my hormones...and I'm over being female. I have cried more in the past two weeks than I have in months...seriously. Let me recount my afternoon yesterday...

Wow I'm hungry...I should eat something. I had a small lunch.
But what one earth should I eat?
I guess I'll settle for some rice and milk with sugar (I know that may sound gross to some of you, but I love it)
Ok that was good. I'm REALLY tired. I should take a nap...
But WAIT...One Tree Hill is online? I haven't watched that show in forever...
Ok I'll just watch ONE episode.
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One Episode later
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I can't believe I'm HUNGRY again!!! What now???

Ok...chocolate milk and cheese nips. That oughta tide me over till dinner.

I can't take a nap...I feel bad for the dogs. I need to take them for a walk...
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ONE MORE EPISODE LATER
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K now I'm REALLY tired. Darn. It's already 4:30. Ben will be home soon. I need to make dinner...
I search through the kitchen to find I have NOTHING to cook.
So...reluctantly I go to the grocery store. I hate going to the grocery store by our house cuz it's ALWAYS crowded. No matter the time of day or night. But I braved it cuz I wanted my husband to have a good dinner. I've been slacking lately and just don't have the energy to cook! He's been working 11 hour days to get ahead at work, and I'm SO proud of him. So I have to do this small thing. Go to the grocery store!!!

WELL...I was already a bit ornery that I didn't have the ingredients I needed..and that I had to go buy some the day BEFORE pay day. I figured I'd just write a check and that'd be good cuz it wouldn't clear till AFTER we got paid. So I hurried as fast I could to get my 8 dollars worth of dinner groceries. I got to the check out and the cashier was an idiot. Sorry...but he really was. I stood there waiting for him to scan my groceries, and he just stared at me, and then suddenly realized OH! Those things on the belt waiting to be scanned must be hers...WOW.

Ok so we finally get things scanned and I write out my CALIFORNIA check...and he says he can't take it cuz my ID is Utah. WHAT?! I was here two days ago and you said NOTHING about not taking an OUT OF STATE ID!!!!! JUST THAT I COULDN'T HAVE AN OUT OF STATE CHECK!!! THIS IS AN IN STATE CHECK!!! LOSERS! (I only said half of that out loud)
Then I sorta SORTA calmed down.

I hate California sometimes. Some of the dimmest bulbs live here. AND I hate being an adult. I hate all the rules and things and people who tell me NO all the time!

So as I was making my way out to my car, some random guy said "LEFTIES ROCK!" WHAT???
Is anyone NOT going to bother me today?! He had seen me writing my check with my left hand. How he saw this and WHY he was staring I don't even need to know. But he did. And it bothered me. I made it almost to my car..and I started to cry. I cried because I felt dumb that I hadn't been able to find my debit card in the store, so I had to use my mom's emergency credit card...and I cried because this simple stupid thing was making me CRY!! I am SO sick of feeling like a basket case!

I cried the whole way home, then started making dinner. I had fresh onion in the fridge but I didn't feel like chopping it...so then I cried again cuz I knew I was going to use the chopped onion seasoning in the cupboard, and I felt bad cuz I knew Ben would rather have fresh onion! I finally got a grip as he got home. But as soon as I heard him walk up beside me I LOST it! I started bawling uncontrollably about how silly I felt and how stupid being a girl is! Luckily my husband is AMAZING..and he just hugged me while I cried and kissed me and wiped my tears. It's awesome having someone love you that much.

I finally calmed down. I needed a good cry. But I cry and get SO frustrated lately..it's a bit out of control.

There's no point to this post..I just wanted to rant and rave again about how much hormones SUCK.

That's all.